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Sirius felt a little bit guilty for this. What he was planning was, essentially, a surprise attack. And Remus was probably going to flail like crazy, but. They needed to talk. And Remus had been making it really really difficult to get the chance to talk to him alone.

He knew Remus had been sneaking up to the dorms after everyone else had fallen asleep. So, to make sure he didn't, he'd chugged about three mugs' worth of coffee before he'd headed up, so he wouldn't accidentally drift off. He lay on his mattress, feigning sleep with his face down in the pillow, but his brain was so wired he knew he wasn't going to sleep anytime soon. The insomnia was going to suck, but it would be worth it.

He wondered when Remus would finally come up to bed.

Date: 2010-11-11 07:30 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] lycanthropy-101.livejournal.com
"But..." Remus looked at him, the same expression on his face, not moving closer or further away from him. "What... What if I'm horrible at this...? I. I don't want to be a horrible kisser, Sirius. I don't want you to think poorly of me because I have no idea what I'm doing..."

Date: 2010-11-11 07:39 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] why-so-me.livejournal.com
"You're not a horrible kisser, Remus," Sirius said. With his cheeks turning a little red, he added, "Kissing you is nice. And, I mean, I don't think you're going to suddenly switch to being a terrible, horrendous kisser."

Cheekily, he added, "And, you know, practice makes perfect. So maybe you just need to practice loads and loads."

Date: 2010-11-11 07:43 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] lycanthropy-101.livejournal.com
Remus couldn't help but snort at Sirius's cheek, and he brought a hand up to cover his mouth, embarrassed that he'd just laughed at Sirius. He blushed, although behind his hand, a smile was starting to bloom on his face. "...you think?" he asked, as he slowly, painfully slowly, started to warm up to the idea that this was really happening, and that it was probably the best thing ever.

Date: 2010-11-11 07:49 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] why-so-me.livejournal.com
Sirius chuckled, grinning a bit at the smile that he could tell Remus was hiding behind his hand. "I do think," he said. "Really. And, you know, if you're in need of someone to practice with, you know, I am only one bed away from you in the dorms."

Date: 2010-11-11 07:54 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] lycanthropy-101.livejournal.com
Remus moved his hand away from his mouth, and yes, he let himself smile, let himself finally relax and just accept the fact that even if this turned out to be a dream, it was the best dream ever. "That's true," he said, quietly. "Although... From where I see things... You. You're a lot closer than a bed away right now..."

Date: 2010-11-11 08:01 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] why-so-me.livejournal.com
Sirius chuckled. "That's a good point," Sirius said, and he leaned just a bit closer to Remus as he spoke, grinning like a maniac. "Much closer. I could take advantage of that fact, if you want me to."

Date: 2010-11-11 08:06 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] lycanthropy-101.livejournal.com
Remus swallowed, nodding, and just went with it. To hell with feeling awkward, he was going to feel awkward anyway, might as well just let it happen. "That's very true. You... You could. And... Well. I... I do, so..."

Date: 2010-11-11 08:18 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] why-so-me.livejournal.com
Sirius didn't really wait for Remus to finish his sentence. He leaned in and kissed Remus a little more firmly this time, now that he had his permission to do this. One hand reached up to cup Remus' face, the pad of his thumb tracing over his jawline.

Kissing Remus really did feel good. He liked it, liked it a lot more than he'd ever have thought he would before this week. Funny how his thoughts had changed so much in only a few days.

Date: 2010-11-11 08:29 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] lycanthropy-101.livejournal.com
Remus liked Sirius kissing him. And he really liked that hand on his face. He couldn't help it. He smiled into the kiss, and did his best to kiss Sirius back. It was a little awkward--he really didn't know what he was doing, but for a novice, Remus was actually pretty good at it, reaching up a hand to gently rest on Sirius's shoulder while he kissed him back.

Date: 2010-11-11 08:37 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] why-so-me.livejournal.com
Sirius made a small, pleased noise when Remus began to kiss back, enjoying things even more now that Remus was responding enthusiastically. And he wasn't a bad kisser, despite his inexperience, and his lips felt warm and good. Sirius returned the kiss eagerly, letting his free arm wrap around Remus' back in a chaste embrace.

Date: 2010-11-11 09:11 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] lycanthropy-101.livejournal.com
Sirius's arms around Remus's back prompt him to wrap his own arms around Sirius's neck and shoulders. He's seen it done like this before, and will admit that...it's rather nice, all things considered. He smiled into the kiss. This is utterly mad. Trust Sirius to be such a bad influence on him. They could get caught. James could wake up, or they might get outed in school. Someone might see them, and then the school might make their lives a living hell, but. Sitting there, wrapped in Sirius's arms, kissing him, he couldn't bring himself to care.

Date: 2010-11-11 09:44 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] why-so-me.livejournal.com
Sirius liked this; he liked how warm they were, wrapped around each other, kissing without any anxiety (even though there were two other people in the room....ah well). Despite all his earlier panic and embarrassment, Sirius felt pretty much giddy with how things turned out. Feeling a bit daring, he let his tongue slip a small ways out his mouth into Remus, tasting the inside of his mouth.

Date: 2010-11-11 10:02 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] lycanthropy-101.livejournal.com
At Sirius's tongue slipped into Remus's mouth, he paused for a second, before attempting to kiss Sirius back just as well. It was awkward again, but it was sweet, and Remus loved kissing Sirius. And...he loved Sirius in general. Funny how it worked out. He did start to worry about anyone seeing them, though. Without even thinking about breaking the kiss, or that normal people generally couldn't, Remus reached a hand out, called on the much more wild magic inside of him that came from being a werewolf, and magicked the curtains shut around them, before putting his arm back around Sirius's shoulders.

Date: 2010-11-11 11:44 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] why-so-me.livejournal.com
Sirius chuckled the tiniest bit into the kiss when he realized what Moony was doing. Though it was good of him to think of that, really. He didn't want to think what would happen if Prongs woke up to this.

He broke the kiss only for a moment, stopping to chuckle and catch his breath. "Smart idea, Moony," he said breathlessly. "Not sure I'd want to see what would happen if anyone woke up."

Date: 2010-11-11 11:58 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] lycanthropy-101.livejournal.com
Remus laughed, breathlessly. "Honestly, I'm doing it more for my sanity than for how smart it may or may not be. If James wakes up and catches us... I'm not sure my nerves would be able to take it. I've already had one big shock tonight, and that's quite enough..."

Date: 2010-11-12 12:38 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] why-so-me.livejournal.com
Sirius laughed, resting his head on Remus' shoulder for the moment. "Well, I'd hate to completely fry your nerves in a single evening. So that's all for the best," he teased. "Though, if he were to catch us, I'm willing to bet Prongs' nerves would be a bit shot as well."

Date: 2010-11-12 12:43 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] lycanthropy-101.livejournal.com
Remus tilted his head back to look up, taking in a breath and letting it out. God, he couldn't even imagine what James's reaction to this might be. It was one thing to know that Remus was gay. It was one thing to know that Remus had a crush on someone. It was another thing entirely to find out that Remus had a crush on his best mate, and that that crush was equally returned back to him.

"...what are we doing here, Sirius?" he asked, quietly, his nerves getting the better of him once again.

Date: 2010-11-12 12:51 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] why-so-me.livejournal.com
Sirius blinked, not understanding the question. He leaned back to look Remus in the face, a questioning expression on his face. "What do you mean?" he asked.

Date: 2010-11-12 01:16 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] lycanthropy-101.livejournal.com
Remus turned his face down to look at Sirius, inches away from him, his look searching. "What... What is this, exactly?" he asked. "I... I like kissing you, but more than that. I like you. I... I really like you. I mean. Are you sure? It's... It's not like being with a girl. And then there's James, and. Who knows what he might think about this. This isn't going to be easy." He swallowed again, his eyes suddenly guarded, sad. "You're... You're not going to just try this out for a week, and then give it up if it doesn't work for you, are you? I. I don't think I could take that..."

Date: 2010-11-12 01:36 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] why-so-me.livejournal.com
"Moony," he said, his voice firm. "I'm not going to just ditch you in a week. I'm not doing this as, like...a test run, or something. I really do like you."

His hand was still on Remus' face, and he let his thumb run over his cheek in what he hoped was a comforting gesture. "I am sure. Like I said...I don't feel like this about anybody, normally. Maybe a few girls in the past, but not really as strongly. And I really do want to be with you. I don't care whether or not it's easy."

Date: 2010-11-12 02:15 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] lycanthropy-101.livejournal.com
Remus didn't back down on this. He had to be sure before he could really, really accept it for what it was. "...It doesn't matter to you, then? That... That I'm not a girl. Because I'm not. No matter how much you and James make fun of me for it, I... I really am all male. And. Things are different, when you're with a bloke than they are when you're with a girl. You... You're okay with that?"

Date: 2010-11-12 02:37 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] why-so-me.livejournal.com
Sirius nodded. "Yeah," he said. "I am. I'm not...expecting you to be a girl, somehow. I know that it's different, but I like the idea of being with you, just the way you are. I'm not expecting you to be anybody except you."

Date: 2010-11-12 03:00 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] lycanthropy-101.livejournal.com
"And..." God, Remus couldn't believe he was saying this. "You're okay with the fact that I'm a guy. That I... That I have everything that you have...and well, you know what I mean. You... You aren't freaked out or, I don't know, disgusted by the idea of... I mean...with a guy, that is..."

Date: 2010-11-12 03:18 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] why-so-me.livejournal.com
Sirius chuckled a tiny bit. "Yes, Remus, I'm very disgusted by the idea," he said. "So very disgusted that I just made out with you. With tongue. On my bed."

He leaned in to plant a quick kiss on the corner of Remus' lips. "I'm not. Like I said, I like you and all your maleness, so. Don't worry about that. I'm not freaked out by that."

Date: 2010-11-12 03:29 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] lycanthropy-101.livejournal.com
Remus smiled a little, shaking his head at Sirius. "Yes, but. Girls have lips too. You can kiss girls, same as you can with blokes. What I'm trying to say is..." He blushed, mightily. "I haven't got girl parts. I've got... I've got boy parts. I've got wide shoulders and well, not now so much, but. I'll have to shave my face, pretty soon, and I've got...I've got bits, and are you really, truly okay with that?"

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